Keep Trying

They don’t
Live on their phones like I do,
Battle their thoughts like I do
When I
Live on the phone like I do,
Speak out a lot like I do.
Why do I keep trying?
Because I think that I should,
Why do I…?
Oh, oh oh…

I tried to change the world,
But I just lost my friends,
My sails have gone unfurled,
I’m in the wind where I’ve been,
Years now, it always hurts,
Tried that as my defense,
How foolish, I could hurl,
And it’s just the onset.

They don’t
Live on their phones like I do,
Battle their thoughts like I do
When I
Live on the phone like I do,
Speak out a lot like I do.
Why do I keep trying?
Because I think that I should,
Why do I…?
Oh, oh oh…

Looking at it,
Looking back and
I cannot keep looking at it,
Feeling hope quit,
Coping, acting out
And not defeating addict.
Shun,
Son,
Come regret the sum,
You’re feeling kinda dumb,
So you get up and go get numb,
Hitchoo with the brunt,
The kids come up and call you, “Skunk,”
Better tell someone
Before it’s over and you’re done.

“Better reject your own confession,”
That’s the devil come investing,
You could mess him up by blessing
Everybody with your intentions,
Arthur took up fencing
And old Merlin lost connection,
But the cross is no invention,
It’s the cost of when we let sin

Win?
No,
Who’s gonna let it in?
Christ took everything, the burden, death and mental din,
Oh oh,
No,
No no no
No enemy will win,
Nah nah nah.

They don’t
Live on their phones like I do,
Battle their thoughts like I do
When I
Live on the phone like I do,
Speak out a lot like I do.
Why do I keep trying?
Because I think that I should,
Why do I…?
Oh, oh oh…
Jesus Christ,
Save
My life.

You who have been broken and victimized, rejoice! Jesus knows who you are. He will bring your suffering to an end, in His perfect time.

Designing something…

Or trying to anyways.

Compulsory

Oh they know,
They know,
They know,
They know
How hard it is to disconnect
Their meaning from my self defense,
They know,
They know,
They know,
They know
I’ma keep serving the Lord,
Yeah, He’s the one Who will protect.

Oh we all,
We all,
We all,
We all
Look away from what’s uncomfortable,
Not to the things we’ve said,
Oh we all,
We all,
We all,
We all,
We owe it all to God
Because He’s faithful unto death,

Oh the woe,
The woe,
The woe,
The woe
That’s coming onto everyone who won’t accept the toll,
Oh we don’t,
We don’t,
We don’t,
We don’t
Live just to call a role,
It’s not enough to simply show.

I get distracted
By the lists I build,
Get invested
In a blissed out pill,
Push the gist uphill,
Pull the fist that kills,
I’ma live,
I’ma level up,
Get my fill.
I’ve been looking like a jilted villain,
Double inside, but I got no children,
Working not hard enough, bringing down the building,
I’ve been pretty difficult but nobody is billin’,
Don’t know why, but I look so criminal,
I’ve been chasing holiness, but get caught in dealing nopes,
Getting by but I’m fah fah, feeling full,
Obi Wan gonna force feed, guess you gotta know.

Sorry I neglected you, blog. Here’s a photo of a thing I printed.

Everything Inside

Written in July,
Hidden in the sky,
I’ma take on all the things that I let slip by,
Meds all in my mind,
Look too deep inside,
I don’t feel alright but I still wanna be alive,
Crippled in the lie,
Sold to my demise,
Get up on my feet but they’ve been quite long in the fire,
I said my goodbyes,
Waved off all the ties,
But found I couldn’t love if I had no one left in mind.

Everything is fictional
Until you see it isn’t so
When you’re on the medicinal,
Everybody wants you woke,
No it’s not what it can do,
It’s what they think that it can do,
They’re entitled to the proof
Until their argument’s disproved.
Now they say they didn’t know,
Turn tables, call it criminal,
Unless it’s recreational,
Then everybody ends up full,
Ask again if they want truth,
Not when it only calls them rude,
I guess their GPS reroutes
When their emotions feel a bruise.

Hope is on the way for me,
I feel it waving in the breeze,
Look until it’s plain to see,
The cross I carry’s no defeat,
Oh don’t wait for victory,
A life of joy waits in the evening walks and morning talks, so breathe
And take a step in pace with peace.

“We admire your honesty,” they said, right before they discarded all respect for me.

I didn’t understand.

Leaflike Means

Jesus gave me cannabis,
I say this to make lukewaters churn,
Medicine that hasn’t quit,
Even though some watch to see me hurt,
Most of them go ham within;
But confessing cannot make you worse,
“Let us in, we haven’t sinned,”
Is the claim they think will put them first.

Listen, it’s not righteousness
That tells me what to say,
It’s love in God and staying His,
That makes me want to pray,
I ran amok, got so grim…
In spite of all I’ve done, He’s safe,
If I’ve got some to say, it’s this:
In Christ alone hope’s safe to place.

I have been persuaded,
Nothing has invaded,
Yet my mind was one way, changed it,
Now i long to face it,
I have been updated,
Not like Mr. Name-and-claim-it,
But to have what faith is
And listen to His grace and patience.