I can’t keep it in,
You might wanna take a couple steps back,
‘Cause I can’t keep this in.
You might wanna get some distance ‘tween us,
I won’t sell you anything,
But maybe you should put a barricade up.
‘Cause I just can’t keep it in.
Thankfulness in me is drawing up into a shout!

Who first contrived the idea of God?
What man could spin such a tale?
Who could put the Maker above all?
Who would say He wants your walk by faith?
Every other thing on earth is called
By one label or another,
But who named God, that He could fail?

The weather’s been better,
But it’s also been worse.
I tried self-defending
And ended up in a hearse,
Chauffeur had ideas so diff’rent,
Drove about a block before he turned
Another way, took me away forever.
I wasn’t dead, but the pride got me so burnt.

Who first contrived the idea of God?
What man could spin such a tale?
Who could put the Maker above all?
Who would say He wants your walk by faith?
Every other thing on earth is called
By one label or another,
But who named God, that He could fail?

I made a decision,
And I’ve stumbled since,
But I haven’t changed my mind.

I can’t keep it in,
You might wanna take a couple steps back,
‘Cause I can’t keep this in.
You might wanna get some distance ‘tween us,
I won’t sell you anything,
But maybe you should put a barricade up.
‘Cause I just can’t keep it in.
Thankfulness in me is drawing up into a shout!

Didn’t,

All I did today was didn’t.
I can’t show you what I’m bringing​ in,
Sometimes work is less than building,
Watering can does not pull weeds out.
It’s still hard to face the withering
Self-important attitudes in my head.

Let them talk about you,
Let them believe what you never said.
You already know the truth,
It won’t matter in the end.
Nobody to talk back to,
It’s just voices in your head.
In the end, we make it through.
Opinions like clucking hens,
Turn it over, test for proof
While you’re doing flips in bed.
Sleep will seduce but elude
When you oppose what’s ahead.
Hope tastes better than this brew,
Think I’m better off without regret.

All I did today was didn’t.
I can’t show you what I’m bringing​ in,
Sometimes work is less than building,
Watering can does not pull weeds out.
It’s still hard to face the withering
Self-important attitudes in my head.

Yeah,
Tell the apple tree the orchard’s out the fence,
Let’s pull up root, ignore what’s true, imaginative heads,
Stand on back, we’re making bucks, let’s establish what we said,
‘Cause we’re making a scarecrow of dread,
Scare away the fishies to understand what’s ahead,
Guess we’ll keep on trawling, but this flotsam upends.
Didn’t think we saw it through, but we’re way out of our depth.

All I did today was didn’t.
I can’t show you what I’m bringing​ in,
Sometimes work is less than building,
Watering can does not pull weeds out.
It’s still hard to face the withering
Self-important attitudes in my head.

Some day,
I’ll be changed
Like night to day,
And I won’t see the gray.

Somewhere
What isn’t fair,
What fades your hair,
And deepens your stare
Is not disqualification fare.

Some day
We’ll be okay,
The skies will break,
We’ll see Jesus’ face,
He’ll take our sorrow away,
Forever where He is we’ll stay.

All I did today was didn’t.
I can’t show you what I’m bringing​ in,
Sometimes work is less than building,
Watering can does not pull weeds out.
It’s still hard to face the withering
Self-important attitudes in my head.

Stormbreak

When the sunrise
Meets the storm,
Let the sunshine
Reach from far,
Branches need light
So they grow
But clouds bring rain
For longer hope.

I’m still trying to find my voice.
Look out the window, see the geese pass by,
Canary, I’ll be, if I’m not all spite,
Reaching with lines I found where I can hide.
Tempered by the heat of disagreeing with joy,
I can’t find my rhyme inside unless I allow myself to cry.
Tell myself I’m made to rejoice,
Hard to write music that fits my goals,
I keep on trying each day and I’m told
In time I will find the way like gold.
Don’t mind me if my little poems get a little brazen, kinda bold,
I won’t hang the phone up and I won’t leave you on hold.
There’s a Light inside me that I steward, but can’t hold,
And it will shine with or without the effect of my hope.
So I take each day like it’s new and runs to a tempo of its own.

When the sunrise
Meets the storm,
Let the sunshine
Reach from far,
Branches need light
So they grow
But clouds bring rain
For longer hope.

So am I being rebellious
When I spit these lines like I’m Twenty-One Pilots,
Eminem is in the dust, not even close, I trust,
That my sarcasm is evident when I rap like I’m Ludacris,
Do I even sound like them?
Not over my dead body, head’s up, guess I’ll never win.
I’m just gonna vent my rhythm,
Way too shy to show my face anywhere I’d fit,
Walk inside, let’s turn around, go have a cigarette again.
Next time, yeah, next time, might have a little change of heart next time,
Procrastinate like it’ll make you feel so sublime,
Next time, there’s never a next time.

When the sunrise
Meets the storm,
Let the sunshine
Reach from far,
Branches need light
So they grow
But clouds bring rain
For longer hope.

Spending my time on intrinsic rhymes,
Skip a bit of my inside memorandum brine,
Didn’t know I’d find anything here that I like,
But here I am, I wanna be me, guess the past can lie,
Tomorrow’s​ brighter now than yesterday’s was, and I think we’re alright.

When the sunrise
Meets the storm,
Let the sunshine
Reach from far,
Branches need light
So they grow
But clouds bring rain
For longer hope.

Wait

Wait out the day,
, And that’s okay,
Ignore the claim:
, “Tomorrow’s​ bait”,
And wait today.
, Darkness fakes.

Darkness fakes.

Fake it ’til you break,
Find all that’s left is faith.
Spend all of that away,
Until you cannot pray.
Face the dismal day
Waste a year or three in pain,
Calling upon Jesus’ Name
Because nobody can forgive the blame,
Wait and wait and wait,
Patience like Monopoly games,
Flip the table, fits of rage.
Black eyes, proxy tattle tale.
Racing heart makes your chest ache.

Wait out the day,
, And that’s okay,
Ignore the claim:
, “Tomorrow’s​ bait”,
And wait today.
, Darkness fakes.

Darkness fakes.

The sun will rise up
On east horizon,
And I will find this
Song that I sing.
Empty pothead,
Could use some filling.
Overwhelmed by mere thoughts,
But I’m overcoming.
Pressing pause on my play
So I can sit down in quiet.

Wait out the day,
, And that’s okay,
Ignore the claim:
, “Tomorrow’s​ bait”,
And wait today.
, Darkness fakes.

Darkness fakes.

Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
Just a short verse.
Skip it like turnt
Rocks skippin’ on cisterns.
Somebody learn
A lesson quick, I’ma take my turn.
Roll it like it burns.
Message in an urn.
Lemme get to where I been.

‘Cause
Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.
What’s important to your soul?
Somebody, speak up, yo.
I keep yelling like, “Here’s hope,”
But you just keep draggin’ ropes;
Looking up is how you grow.
So man, quit hanging your head low.
You won’t find it where you’ve gone,
So why don’t we both lay it down?

Everybody acting like they know.
Everybody acting like they know.

Wait out the day,
, And that’s okay,
Ignore the claim:
, “Tomorrow’s​ bait”,
And wait today.
, Darkness fakes.

Darkness fakes.

Obtrusive

I hear you groan as you walk by,
Angry voice that cannot hide
The pain you have in your insides.
Please stop walking for a while,
I can’t help you dress in style.
But if you turn around and find
I can see that you are crying,
Please don’t think that I could mind,
I know just what this feels like.
And I just wish your pain was mine.

I don’t write music
Just to be abusive,
I try not to be obtrusive,
But I think like I can’t do this
By myself, and I can’t prove it,
Maybe I’ll put aside the brooding.
Cancel all my calendar date doodling,
Redistribute priorities, inside man renewing.
God came through, it’s what I hoped, I knew it!

Where is my crew?
Don’t I need people too?
Is everybody cruel?
I don’t know what to do.
With being somebody else I’m through,
But that’s not good enough for you.
I’m as messed up as Bartholomew,
But I’m still not good enough for you.

I don’t write music
Just to be abusive,
I try not to be obtrusive,
But I think like I can’t do this
By myself, and I can’t prove it,
Maybe I’ll put aside the brooding.
Cancel all my calendar date doodling,
Redistribute priorities, inside man renewing.
God came through, it’s what I hoped, I knew it!

Maybe I come across as dubious,
Mennonite, I’ve been trained up like I’m studious,
Build me way on up, I tremble like Vesuvius,
Help me find a way out, I won’t run along with who we with,
We focus homeward and we gently tend this stewardship,
Making more than molehills clear out from what we’re doing here.

I don’t write music
Just to be abusive,
I try not to be obtrusive,
But I think like I can’t do this
By myself, and I can’t prove it,
Maybe I’ll put aside the brooding.
Cancel all my calendar date doodling,
Redistribute priorities, inside man renewing.
God came through, it’s what I hoped, I knew it!

Add grace in like cinnamon,
Bootstrap pace like I’m running in a race to win,
Carabiner weight, culpability to my sin,
Fell off like like prison bars that rusted in the rain.
Muscles spasms rein me in when I am wandering,
Helplessness cannot take this precious treasure, faith in me,
I can’t fall away, God joined me up with Heaven’s Name.

I feel guilty if i make a song every day,
Feel like that’s a bit stupid but don’t interrogate.
Tell my high school years that I’m walking in this faith,
Travel back in time just to see me celebrate.
Future path ahead of me is stomping on snakes.
I can’t get enough of heaven, so for patience I wait.
Kick The Can instilled in me a need to cry for grace.
Yes. I can overcome. I can even get last place.

Add grace in like cinnamon,
Bootstrap pace like I’m running in a race to win,
Carabiner weight, culpability to my sin,
Fell off like like prison bars that rusted in the rain.
Muscles spasms rein me in when I am wandering,
Helplessness cannot take this precious treasure, faith in me,
I can’t fall away, God joined me up with Heaven’s Name.

Kitten in a lap, i know I won’t be turned to hate.
If I scratch the carpet, if I dig in lanes
Of tilled up dirt, where fruit might entertain
Some day if they’re not devoured by the curiousity.
Guess it’s patience games, but it tastes a bit like cinnamon
Sticks in hot chocolate,
Like spice in a cake, lemme imitate,
Give myself over to imminent faith,
‘Cause God loved me before I was safe.
And gave His Son Who died in my place.
Take it all to Creator’s gates.
He gives new life for believing His Name,
Overload you with love that burns away the sin
Tastebuds just cannot take it all in.
Jesus’ grace tastes like cinnamon.

Add grace in like cinnamon,
Bootstrap pace like I’m running in a race to win,
Carabiner weight, culpability to my sin,
Fell off like like prison bars that rusted in the rain.
Muscles spasms rein me in when I am wandering,
Helplessness cannot take this precious treasure, faith in me,
I can’t fall away, God joined me up with Heaven’s Name.

Every day is something I’ve never seen.
Guess I’m better off if I take one at a time,
Allspice tastes way too much like medicine.
I plant houseplants, but I hesitate to water them.
Glad I have a wife who keeps me honest when I’m grim.
Helps me not to feel hopeless at the fight within,
Takes the battle in her hands when I have nothing left in me.
God provides for everyone who puts their faith in Him.

Sarspirilla

I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
Tell me how to talk,
While you’re cussing out with vagaries.
Adlibbed monologue with frustrated dagger sneaks,
Pointy fingers tell a truth, but wandering,
They’ll boomerang on back, get you where you were sitting.
Guessing games build luck, but a mirror crushed the spider’s dreams.

Yeah,
I’m militant
With this ill intent.
I’m on this bent,
And nobody’s charging me rent.
Call out the hell cats,
Catch me with those whips that crack.
Spend your savings on my lack.
Rack it, but I won’t keep track.
I’m cashing out my stash,
I called the last good flask.
Feel like I wanna be more than I am,
But I’m not how I stand.
Got new livery like I’m on staff,
Security pass, my thank-you dash.
Invisible door in a brick wall, crash,
His Name is a tower, and I’m so brash.

I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
Tell me how to talk,
While you’re cussing out with vagaries.
Adlibbed monologue with frustrated dagger sneaks,
Pointy fingers tell a truth, but wandering,
They’ll boomerang on back, get you where you were sitting.
Guessing games build luck, but a mirror crushed the spider’s dreams.

Climbing ladders,
Chasing after
End game manners
Like elegance in glamour,
Present tense enamoured,
Innocence, embrace the laughter,
Obey my pastor
And I won’t guess at passwords.
Thankfulness works faster
Than pushing back on bad hurt.

I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
I’m on,
But you’re pushing on my boundaries,
Tell me how to talk,
While you’re cussing out with vagaries.
Adlibbed monologue with frustrated dagger sneaks,
Pointy fingers tell a truth, but wandering,
They’ll boomerang on back, get you where you were sitting.
Guessing games build luck, but a mirror crushed the spider’s dreams.